| May. 8th, 2010 @ 07:13 pm I wonder... |
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Current Mood::  groggy Current Musical Obsession:: In the graves of the lonely by Third realm.
It's a mystery to me as to how I get so h0rny before my monthly. I get this feeling to desperately make myself feel very good before I feel very bad. And in a way...I am so romancing myself. ;D But that is very odd, and last night I felt the very moment I got it.
I can get very romantic. I deserve it too, afterall, I will be cramping and selectively slamming my wrath upon people. But this urge to feel good right before a bloody storm is interesting to me.
We called it "selective wrath of bitchery." Because only certain people set me off, only certain people make me pissed and irritated. Is that the same emotion? Pissed and irritated? I mean there is SUPER pissed...
Anyways, some peeps get me going more than others. But these are people I have problems with in the first place. No fucking harm done really, the feeling is just amplified!
Yes, the feeling of wanting to wring their necks is amplified, super. And of course there will be people I have no problems with feeling this wrath rarely. I r sorry.
Don't you miss these kinds of posts? Eh? Miss it? Miss me? Miss my evil fucking self? ;p
Not sure if it's allowed here but I assume free speech is still with this place. I can't recall wtf I've posted HERE before...I could look...but I don't care. Maybe I should copy ALL of this...and paste it in my DEADJOURNAL. Mwuahahahahahahaha!!! *does it*
So now I'm this library going type of person. Yay me.
I have a rabbit now. 2 new dogs. I'm living in a better place. I'm older. I'm interacting with people online much better I think.
I try...I am still so nice it makes me sick. The brutal things and jokes I wish to put out there are often held back due to me being very very considerate. Even the softest of opinions I have about something or someone, if it even seems slightly bad to me...I'll hold it. With some people I don't and that's just because I KNOW them and how to handle them. They are trusted friends. But others will see in time. I'm not all moonlight and roses.
People are still such mind fucks. There is still only a handful, no, not even a handful, of people I can trust. Maybe..4. Not including my family. But those 4 people are like my family.
There is maybe...a few people I trust to an extent...whom I have fun with and not much more.
I've been DJing for people in a chatroom. I did so last night for the first time (first time that had good results). I got a good mic, have the settings down, and I might even talk too. It's really fun and these people actually listen to me. And these people even like W13 and Murderdolls..they actually liked my music...I felt so much warm joy last night. I almost cried. Over emotional, you know? lol!
In some places you are either ignored or badgered. About cams. Ignored=you don't have a cam and some other girl is doing something more amusing and distracting than you. Badgered=to get a cam to be just like that girl. I'm not her...I'll never be her even if I got a cam. Get over it.
I'm not a cam person. I will get a cam when I want. I don't see how we can't just leave it at that and be friends.
And then it seems they get irritated that I don't get a cam...well that's my choice. And why get irritated? You get my pictures. My voice. My text. My music. Anything else I could possibly want to share!
Anyways, if you want...the one reader...lol! Love you girl! to know this chat...and hang out with us I will link you up. These people are really fun and cool. One though, Vet, there is a slight language barrier, ok maybe big but she seems to understand me alright, and if she comes across as mean, it's not.
You'll have to sign-up. Visitors cannot type or watch cams or listen to audio. Sucky, but being a member isn't bad. They need people to join anyways.
http://lunatics.us/
I would love to see you hang out with us. It gets crazy at random times.
I would go on now about how the weather has been fucking around lately...but I won't. I'll end this random post. I just wanted to get some things that were on my mind and bothering off my hands. THIS IS WHAT THIS IS FOOOOORRRRRR! ;D
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